". . . For the righteous God tests the hearts and minds (literally kidneys; the secret part of man).
My defense is of God, Who saves the upright in heart." ~Psalm 7:9-10
Yesterday, I woke up around 5:00am with excruciating pain in my left kidney. Normally, I'm pretty good at hiding when something on my body hurts, but the pain in my kidney was so bad that I would let out a weird little noise every time I moved a certain way. I haven't been drinking enough water, so I walked to the kitchen with tears running down my face to get some. I then went to spend time with the Lord to ask Him if this was about anything besides a lack of water. Three things came out of that time: 1. I remembered verses, like the one above, where "mind" is translated to mean "kidneys". 2. I needed to put on my Belt of Truth. 3. The Lord gave me an overwhelming peace.
So, I went about my Sunday in the worst pain. I got prayer from the 2 and 3 year olds (there is SO much power in their prayers!!) and felt better, but still had some pain. I then got prayer from a woman who gets a whole lot of insight from the Lord. While we were praying, the Lord connected the dots of my prayer time that morning through her.
She was praying for a deeper revelation of God's love to come to me, and for the lies about my worth to be pulled out. While she was praying, God showed me something that I had almost forgotten about.
The other day, I said something about the Lord doing something that would be a huge inconvenience to me (something like hitting every red light when I'm late...I don't remember what I was saying.) that would make Him laugh at me. That is NOT the character of our God!! The Holy Spirit definitely caught me on it when I said it, but I didn't do anything about it, like tell Him sorry.
When He revealed it to me again, I quickly said sorry and asked Him to purge me of anymore false perceptions that I had of Him. The pain immediately left and I was left with a VERY thankful heart.
God wanted to reveal the truth of His character to me in the deepest part of my being. And, the great thing is, He's not done doing that. I'll always be learning more about every aspect of His character, including His love, for the rest of my life. I love this journey with Him!
