"Open my eyes, that I may see wonderous things . . ." Psalm 119:18
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about perspective...probably because I've needed it so desperately. I have been asking the Lord for Heavenly perspective, and He has been giving it to me over the last few weeks.
My physical eyes often have a hard time focusing on and understanding the big picture. Sometimes I'll see a photo in which someone else is noticing one thing, but I see a completely different image. Often, the image that I see is scary because it is so distorted. So, when everyone else is saying positive things about the photo, I'm left searching for what they see that's so great. I have to search for a different perspective. When I look away from the image, rub my eyes, blink a few times and look back at the photo, it usually makes it much easier to see the big picture.
The way I see certain situations is often the same way. People will tell me how good something is, or will be, and I just don't see it. I need Heaven's perspective to see the "wonderous things"! And the way I get Heaven's perspective is by looking at Jesus.
I've always really enjoyed those optical illusion books with pictures of diferent patterns that seem to make no sense at all. Then, you stick your nose to the page, look at the little dot cross-eyed for 30 seconds, and then slowly pull the book away from your face. If you keep focused on the dot and keep your eyes crossed, the seemingly chaotic image suddenly becomes a 3-D image of an animal, flowers, or various other images. Once you blink or take your eyes off of the dot, or if you don't keep your face to the book long enough, the image goes back to the same chaotic photo you started with.
I'm learning that in every situation, I must keep my eyes focused on Jesus so that I can see the big picture. He knows all. He knows how every situation I face is going to turn out, even as I am having a meltdown over the smallest thing. He always has my good in mind.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
What's in a Name?
"Everyone who is called by My name, whom I have created for My glory; I have formed him, yes, I have made him." ~Isaiah 43:7
Tonight, I, along with some other leaders, went to a women's meeting that my pastor was speaking at. After my pastor was finished speaking, she called up, by name, all of the leaders that had come to hear and support her. . .except for me! I then had a conversation with the Lord in my mind that probably lasted a total of 30 seconds (aren't those amazing? One of the only ways I feel I can cheat time.) It went a little something like this:
Me: "Well, I'm not sure why, but I guess I'm not supposed to pray at this particular event. . .she must know I haven't spent as much time with the Lord as I wanted to spend today. . .Oh well."
Holy Spirit: "Stop waiting for her to call you by name. . .just go up there!
Me: (Getting super nervous right here. The kind of nervous feeling I get when the Lord is telling me to do something and I'm fighting it.) "But, Lord, certainly there is a reason that she singled me out!" (Even though she didn't mean to, it was so the Lord could teach me something)
Holy Spirit: "What might not happen if you don't go up there? Stop waiting for people to call you out. Let it be enough that I am calling you."
That last one really got me. His words, although they came in the form of a 30 second thought-conversation, pierced my soul. Needless to say, I went up there and prayed! The Lord gave me words, pictures, and things to impart. He wanted me up there because He had things for me to do. What if I hadn't listened?! (I'm not "tooting my own horn" here. God wanted to use me. I didn't do anything but obey, which is what I'm supposed to do...my "reasonable service"!)
When I got home, the Lord reminded me of all the times in the last couple of weeks where He has started speaking to me about what it really means to be called by His Name. The reason I've been looking and waiting for people to call me by my name (this happens often, not just this one instance) is because I've either not realized or forgotten that I've already been called by His Name, and that is always enough. I must know who I am in Him, that I am His daughter and have been given His Name, in order to be effective the way He wants. I am called by His Name. I have been created for His glory. I have been formed by Him. If all of these things are true (they are!!), I don't need to keep waiting around for people to notice me or call me out. And I don't need to get my grumpy pants on when they don't, because I've already been called and chosen! I just need to fix my eyes on Father to know what I need to do and where I need to go.
As long as I wait for people, I will not reach the fullness of who God has called me to be. I cannot afford to do that anymore.
Tonight, I, along with some other leaders, went to a women's meeting that my pastor was speaking at. After my pastor was finished speaking, she called up, by name, all of the leaders that had come to hear and support her. . .except for me! I then had a conversation with the Lord in my mind that probably lasted a total of 30 seconds (aren't those amazing? One of the only ways I feel I can cheat time.) It went a little something like this:
Me: "Well, I'm not sure why, but I guess I'm not supposed to pray at this particular event. . .she must know I haven't spent as much time with the Lord as I wanted to spend today. . .Oh well."
Holy Spirit: "Stop waiting for her to call you by name. . .just go up there!
Me: (Getting super nervous right here. The kind of nervous feeling I get when the Lord is telling me to do something and I'm fighting it.) "But, Lord, certainly there is a reason that she singled me out!" (Even though she didn't mean to, it was so the Lord could teach me something)
Holy Spirit: "What might not happen if you don't go up there? Stop waiting for people to call you out. Let it be enough that I am calling you."
That last one really got me. His words, although they came in the form of a 30 second thought-conversation, pierced my soul. Needless to say, I went up there and prayed! The Lord gave me words, pictures, and things to impart. He wanted me up there because He had things for me to do. What if I hadn't listened?! (I'm not "tooting my own horn" here. God wanted to use me. I didn't do anything but obey, which is what I'm supposed to do...my "reasonable service"!)
When I got home, the Lord reminded me of all the times in the last couple of weeks where He has started speaking to me about what it really means to be called by His Name. The reason I've been looking and waiting for people to call me by my name (this happens often, not just this one instance) is because I've either not realized or forgotten that I've already been called by His Name, and that is always enough. I must know who I am in Him, that I am His daughter and have been given His Name, in order to be effective the way He wants. I am called by His Name. I have been created for His glory. I have been formed by Him. If all of these things are true (they are!!), I don't need to keep waiting around for people to notice me or call me out. And I don't need to get my grumpy pants on when they don't, because I've already been called and chosen! I just need to fix my eyes on Father to know what I need to do and where I need to go.
As long as I wait for people, I will not reach the fullness of who God has called me to be. I cannot afford to do that anymore.
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Making peace
"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God." ~Matthew 5:9
About 5 or 6 years ago, I heard a sermon in which the speaker said, "There is a difference between a peacemaker and a peacekeeper." Although that's the only part of the message that I remember, those words have stuck with me all this time. I finally took some time the other day to get revelation from the Lord about what this means.
Peacekeeper- One who refrains from or prevents strife (opposition).
Peacemaker- A person who brings about peace.
I'm not one who tries to create or seek out conflict, and if I do oppose something, it has to come with strong emotion, or else I will probably keep silent about it. I don't like to step on toes and I like to make sure everyone is happy and at "peace" with one another. Although I've been called a peacemaker most of my life, I have not been pursuing peace, but have been trying to make sure everyone is happy, even if it doesn't promote growth in them.
Therefore let us pursue the things which make for peace and the things by which one may edify another. ~Romans 14:19
Real peace edifies others. It is not edifying for problems to go unsolved. Sometimes, we really do have to have those hard conversations with people. We really do have to bring up issues that we think would be better left alone, when in reality those issues are creating more strife when they are hidden away than they would out in the open. I think Jesus wants to fix our picture of peace.
Then Jesus went into the temple of God and drove out all those who bought and sold in the temple, and overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who sold doves. And He said to them, “It is written, ‘My house shall be called a house of prayer, but you have made it a ‘den of thieves'." ~Matthew 21:12-13
Jesus, the One Who preached that the peacemakers will be blessed and called sons of God, went into the temple and made a big scene to stand up for God's house. Not very "nice" or "peaceful". Jesus' loyalty was with His Father, so naturally He would do anything to make sure His house wasn't being defiled. He offended some people in the process, but His Father's house was made a house of prayer (and healing for the blind and lame in verse 14!).
Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kiinds of evil agaiinst you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you. ~Matthew 5:11-12
Peacemakers step on toes and don't always seem very nice! But, they will be called sons of God when they are standing up for the Truth God wants them to speak and will see the peace they are making bring forth fruit.
About 5 or 6 years ago, I heard a sermon in which the speaker said, "There is a difference between a peacemaker and a peacekeeper." Although that's the only part of the message that I remember, those words have stuck with me all this time. I finally took some time the other day to get revelation from the Lord about what this means.
Peacekeeper- One who refrains from or prevents strife (opposition).
Peacemaker- A person who brings about peace.
I'm not one who tries to create or seek out conflict, and if I do oppose something, it has to come with strong emotion, or else I will probably keep silent about it. I don't like to step on toes and I like to make sure everyone is happy and at "peace" with one another. Although I've been called a peacemaker most of my life, I have not been pursuing peace, but have been trying to make sure everyone is happy, even if it doesn't promote growth in them.
Therefore let us pursue the things which make for peace and the things by which one may edify another. ~Romans 14:19
Real peace edifies others. It is not edifying for problems to go unsolved. Sometimes, we really do have to have those hard conversations with people. We really do have to bring up issues that we think would be better left alone, when in reality those issues are creating more strife when they are hidden away than they would out in the open. I think Jesus wants to fix our picture of peace.
Then Jesus went into the temple of God and drove out all those who bought and sold in the temple, and overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who sold doves. And He said to them, “It is written, ‘My house shall be called a house of prayer, but you have made it a ‘den of thieves'." ~Matthew 21:12-13
Jesus, the One Who preached that the peacemakers will be blessed and called sons of God, went into the temple and made a big scene to stand up for God's house. Not very "nice" or "peaceful". Jesus' loyalty was with His Father, so naturally He would do anything to make sure His house wasn't being defiled. He offended some people in the process, but His Father's house was made a house of prayer (and healing for the blind and lame in verse 14!).
Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kiinds of evil agaiinst you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you. ~Matthew 5:11-12
Peacemakers step on toes and don't always seem very nice! But, they will be called sons of God when they are standing up for the Truth God wants them to speak and will see the peace they are making bring forth fruit.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Help! I need somebody...
"Then she came and worshipped Him, saying, 'Help me, Lord!'" ~Matthew 15:25
I had this verse written on a lime green post it note stuck to my dresser. I now have a curtain that hides this part of my dresser (for my prayer corner :) ), so I haven't looked at it for a while. I've read Matthew a few times since writing this verse down, but the Lord really wanted to highlight it to me this morning. So, as I entered my prayer corner to be with Jesus this morning, I noticed that this sticky note had fallen down my dresser so I could see it under the curtain. I'm not sure how long the green post it had been there, but, like I said, the Lord really wanted to highlight this verse to me today.
I read the verse and thought about how worship and humility go hand-in-hand and whatnot. I've learned this growing up in church, so I didn't think much about it at first.
As I went on with my prayer time, I kept feeling the Lord say "Just be! Just be!" I listened. Then, He kept speaking this verse to me, asking me to ask Him to help me! I realized this is something I don't do enough. I ask Him for help when "I really need it", or I ask Him to help other people, but I don't take the time daily to ask Him to help me, especially when it's something small. Contrary to my own belief, I really need God to help me every single day.
I then began to ask God to help me with nothing in particular at first, then I started realizing the areas where I really needed help, but hadn't asked for it. God's Presence came in so thick in that little corner of my room! At that moment I was so overwhelmed with gratitude toward my wonderful King who will help me everyday. He is drawn to my cries for help!
By asking God for help, you are worshipping Him, not burdening Him, or "making His job harder." He loves to answer your cries for help! Just like the woman in Matthew, worship the Lord by asking Him for help. Your faith and trust can move God to change a situation.
But I am poor and needy;
Yet the LORD thinks upon me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
Do not delay, O my God. ~Psalm 40:17
I had this verse written on a lime green post it note stuck to my dresser. I now have a curtain that hides this part of my dresser (for my prayer corner :) ), so I haven't looked at it for a while. I've read Matthew a few times since writing this verse down, but the Lord really wanted to highlight it to me this morning. So, as I entered my prayer corner to be with Jesus this morning, I noticed that this sticky note had fallen down my dresser so I could see it under the curtain. I'm not sure how long the green post it had been there, but, like I said, the Lord really wanted to highlight this verse to me today.
I read the verse and thought about how worship and humility go hand-in-hand and whatnot. I've learned this growing up in church, so I didn't think much about it at first.
As I went on with my prayer time, I kept feeling the Lord say "Just be! Just be!" I listened. Then, He kept speaking this verse to me, asking me to ask Him to help me! I realized this is something I don't do enough. I ask Him for help when "I really need it", or I ask Him to help other people, but I don't take the time daily to ask Him to help me, especially when it's something small. Contrary to my own belief, I really need God to help me every single day.
I then began to ask God to help me with nothing in particular at first, then I started realizing the areas where I really needed help, but hadn't asked for it. God's Presence came in so thick in that little corner of my room! At that moment I was so overwhelmed with gratitude toward my wonderful King who will help me everyday. He is drawn to my cries for help!
By asking God for help, you are worshipping Him, not burdening Him, or "making His job harder." He loves to answer your cries for help! Just like the woman in Matthew, worship the Lord by asking Him for help. Your faith and trust can move God to change a situation.
But I am poor and needy;
Yet the LORD thinks upon me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
Do not delay, O my God. ~Psalm 40:17
Monday, July 11, 2011
I love You with all of my...kidneys?
". . . For the righteous God tests the hearts and minds (literally kidneys; the secret part of man).
My defense is of God, Who saves the upright in heart." ~Psalm 7:9-10
Yesterday, I woke up around 5:00am with excruciating pain in my left kidney. Normally, I'm pretty good at hiding when something on my body hurts, but the pain in my kidney was so bad that I would let out a weird little noise every time I moved a certain way. I haven't been drinking enough water, so I walked to the kitchen with tears running down my face to get some. I then went to spend time with the Lord to ask Him if this was about anything besides a lack of water. Three things came out of that time: 1. I remembered verses, like the one above, where "mind" is translated to mean "kidneys". 2. I needed to put on my Belt of Truth. 3. The Lord gave me an overwhelming peace.
So, I went about my Sunday in the worst pain. I got prayer from the 2 and 3 year olds (there is SO much power in their prayers!!) and felt better, but still had some pain. I then got prayer from a woman who gets a whole lot of insight from the Lord. While we were praying, the Lord connected the dots of my prayer time that morning through her.
She was praying for a deeper revelation of God's love to come to me, and for the lies about my worth to be pulled out. While she was praying, God showed me something that I had almost forgotten about.
The other day, I said something about the Lord doing something that would be a huge inconvenience to me (something like hitting every red light when I'm late...I don't remember what I was saying.) that would make Him laugh at me. That is NOT the character of our God!! The Holy Spirit definitely caught me on it when I said it, but I didn't do anything about it, like tell Him sorry.
When He revealed it to me again, I quickly said sorry and asked Him to purge me of anymore false perceptions that I had of Him. The pain immediately left and I was left with a VERY thankful heart.
God wanted to reveal the truth of His character to me in the deepest part of my being. And, the great thing is, He's not done doing that. I'll always be learning more about every aspect of His character, including His love, for the rest of my life. I love this journey with Him!
My defense is of God, Who saves the upright in heart." ~Psalm 7:9-10
Yesterday, I woke up around 5:00am with excruciating pain in my left kidney. Normally, I'm pretty good at hiding when something on my body hurts, but the pain in my kidney was so bad that I would let out a weird little noise every time I moved a certain way. I haven't been drinking enough water, so I walked to the kitchen with tears running down my face to get some. I then went to spend time with the Lord to ask Him if this was about anything besides a lack of water. Three things came out of that time: 1. I remembered verses, like the one above, where "mind" is translated to mean "kidneys". 2. I needed to put on my Belt of Truth. 3. The Lord gave me an overwhelming peace.
So, I went about my Sunday in the worst pain. I got prayer from the 2 and 3 year olds (there is SO much power in their prayers!!) and felt better, but still had some pain. I then got prayer from a woman who gets a whole lot of insight from the Lord. While we were praying, the Lord connected the dots of my prayer time that morning through her.
She was praying for a deeper revelation of God's love to come to me, and for the lies about my worth to be pulled out. While she was praying, God showed me something that I had almost forgotten about.
The other day, I said something about the Lord doing something that would be a huge inconvenience to me (something like hitting every red light when I'm late...I don't remember what I was saying.) that would make Him laugh at me. That is NOT the character of our God!! The Holy Spirit definitely caught me on it when I said it, but I didn't do anything about it, like tell Him sorry.
When He revealed it to me again, I quickly said sorry and asked Him to purge me of anymore false perceptions that I had of Him. The pain immediately left and I was left with a VERY thankful heart.
God wanted to reveal the truth of His character to me in the deepest part of my being. And, the great thing is, He's not done doing that. I'll always be learning more about every aspect of His character, including His love, for the rest of my life. I love this journey with Him!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Daddy God
“So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. If a son asks for bread from any father among you, will he give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent instead of a fish? Or if he asks for an egg, will he offer him a scorpion? If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!” ~Luke 11:9-13
Lately, the Lord has been teaching me about His Father's heart.
Growing up without a dad, God has had a lot of time to teach me about what a true Father is. I thought I knew just about everything there was to know about God being my Father (silly to think that I knew everything, right?). I've discovered over the last couple of weeks that I still have wrong perceptions of Daddy God.
The other morning I was praying...okay, I was actually getting distracted about the fact that I wanted a new dress for graduation, but I still had no money for my phone bill this month. I figured out before this moment of distraction why I was out of money (I hadn't tithed on something...another cool story in itself), told God I was sorry, and thanked Him for His faithfulness. What He said to me in my distraction was very shocking to me.
As I was thinking about what I could possibly do to get a new dress, the Lord said plain as day, "Ask Me!" I responded by saying, "No, Lord, that's so silly. Why would I ask You for a dress when I can't even pay my phone bill?!" And He said again, "Just ask Me! Watch what I do!" I finally caved and said, "Okay, Lord. May I please get a new dress for graduation?"
After asking, He brought to my mind Luke 11:9-13. I was so overwhelmed by His goodness!
He is a faithful Father. He LOVES to give us good gifts.
One three year old that I babysit sometimes comes to me with a cute look on her face and something behind her back. Last time it was play-doh. I was almost afraid to see what was behind her back, but when she pulled out the play-doh and said, "Chrees (that's how she pronounces my name), can I play with this?" I was delighted to say yes to her. How much more delighted is the Lord when we ask Him for things and He gets to bless us!
This aspect of God's nature doesn't only apply to material things. The fact that we get to be in the presence of our Creator and actually know what's on His heart is astounding. What a privilege it is to be able to know Him and His secrets.
Life with the Lord is an adventure. We get to seek out His heart, His secrets, what He wants to say about any situation. He is a faithful Father just waiting for His kids to ask Him for what they need and want. Just ask and watch what He does!
Lately, the Lord has been teaching me about His Father's heart.
Growing up without a dad, God has had a lot of time to teach me about what a true Father is. I thought I knew just about everything there was to know about God being my Father (silly to think that I knew everything, right?). I've discovered over the last couple of weeks that I still have wrong perceptions of Daddy God.
The other morning I was praying...okay, I was actually getting distracted about the fact that I wanted a new dress for graduation, but I still had no money for my phone bill this month. I figured out before this moment of distraction why I was out of money (I hadn't tithed on something...another cool story in itself), told God I was sorry, and thanked Him for His faithfulness. What He said to me in my distraction was very shocking to me.
As I was thinking about what I could possibly do to get a new dress, the Lord said plain as day, "Ask Me!" I responded by saying, "No, Lord, that's so silly. Why would I ask You for a dress when I can't even pay my phone bill?!" And He said again, "Just ask Me! Watch what I do!" I finally caved and said, "Okay, Lord. May I please get a new dress for graduation?"
After asking, He brought to my mind Luke 11:9-13. I was so overwhelmed by His goodness!
He is a faithful Father. He LOVES to give us good gifts.
One three year old that I babysit sometimes comes to me with a cute look on her face and something behind her back. Last time it was play-doh. I was almost afraid to see what was behind her back, but when she pulled out the play-doh and said, "Chrees (that's how she pronounces my name), can I play with this?" I was delighted to say yes to her. How much more delighted is the Lord when we ask Him for things and He gets to bless us!
This aspect of God's nature doesn't only apply to material things. The fact that we get to be in the presence of our Creator and actually know what's on His heart is astounding. What a privilege it is to be able to know Him and His secrets.
Life with the Lord is an adventure. We get to seek out His heart, His secrets, what He wants to say about any situation. He is a faithful Father just waiting for His kids to ask Him for what they need and want. Just ask and watch what He does!
Monday, April 11, 2011
Love.
Love:
- A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
- a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, asfor a parent, child, or friend.
- affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.
- strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.
- the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love
- the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.
I've been thinking a lot about love over the last few months.
We use the word love for just about everything. "I love that movie," or, "I love this restaurant." I feel like we don't actually know the meaning of the word anymore.
Real love is risky. Love will be completely vulnerable. Love will forsake everything. Love will completely forget about itself and its own interests and desires for the sake of another.
There's a song by Misty Edwards called Arms Wide Open that makes me cry almost every time I hear it. Some of the words are "What does love look like? . . . If all of life comes down to love, then love has to be more than sentiment; more than selfishness and selfish gain. Then I saw Him there, hanging on a tree, looking at me. . .He had arms wide open, a heart exposed, arms wide open, He was bleeding. This is how I know what love is."
I "know" that God is love. I "know" that Jesus died on the Cross because He loves the world. I "know" a lot about love. And yet, I don't love people the way I should. I don't always love people with the kind of love that's willing to be completely vulnerable for the sake of helping someone else. I don't always love people enough to let go of their shortcomings, because apparently I have none (sarcasm). I want so badly to love like Jesus.
Something else I've learned about love is that it promotes growth, no matter what.
You know that saying "God loves you where you are, but loves you too much to leave you that way"? Although I'm not one that generally likes cheesy Christian sayings, the Lord confirmed this one to me through a seemingly silly (and gross) dream.
In the dream, I was potty-training a toddler. I told the girl to go sit on the potty but she didn't listen. She overflowed her pull-up with urine. She looked at me with an "oops" face, but you could tell she wasn't actually sorry for disobeying. Then I heard the voice of a wise old man (I kind of picture him with long, white hair and a beard with glasses reading a giant book) come up beside me and say, "Even though the child disobeyed you and wet her pants because of it, and even though you know that this won't be the last time she does this, does that mean you will keep her in pull-ups for the rest of her life? Of course not! You will keep trying until she gets it. That is love."
As silly as the dream seemed to me at first, I continued to get revelation of what it meant. Whether it's God dealing with us, or someone else who God is using to deal with us, sometimes we have to take (or give!) correction from (to) one another. Sometimes I take the "peace-maker" role and twist it to make me comfortable. I'll try and be a peace-keeper and make sure everyone is happy when I'm supposed to speak up about something. I'm not saying to run around and correct everyone, but sometimes the Lord really does want us to speak up in certain situations, especially with those we call our friends. We need to hold each other accountable and be able to receive right correction (another one I really need to work on).
I am really, really grateful to have such an excellent example of love in Jesus. He was, and is, tangible Love. From washing His disciples' feet (even the feet of Judas, who would betray Him not much later), to dying on the Cross, He risked everything for love.
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things endures all things.
~1 Corinthians 13:4-7
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